Korea Trip

I'm back from Korea!!!
Gosh i love it soooo much...i wanna go back there...
the schools are big and their uniform is awesome...pretty this...i envy the girls over there...

I SAW A HOT GUY...and sad to say that i couldn't stop staring...so cute owh that guy...not all korean guys are hot...but this guy is chinese i think..not korean...very very good looking :)

I love shopping in korea...they have pretty earrings :)

will post pictures soon...but first of all have to balik kampung and gather with my families...i love this moment...i just love being with all my family...i feel really really safe with them :)

Love

I went through some blogs today. Mothers' blogs.And something hit me.
There are so much love in this world. I've seen pictures of little children with their family.Such beautiful pictures.By just looking at the pictures i can see and feel how much these mothers love their child.
And children are just so purely beautiful.

Their smile can brighten your day.Their cry make you wanna cry too.And they have natural beauty.They don't have to wear make-up to look pretty.How I wish that i am a kid again.

Those blogs seriously contains so much love.I've always thought that the world lacks of love.But reading those blogs made me realize that love is always there.It's up to you to find it and realize it.It can be in many forms too.
Let it be mother's love, father's love, sisterly love, love between friends,animals and of course between a guy and a girl.

I've been so wrong.I don't need people who doesn't love me.I have my family, and my friends who love me.I'm never wasting my time again and think about the people that doesn't care about me.

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I miss school
Holidays sucks..
especially when you spent it singing carols with the people who annoyed you non-stop.

Seriously, they annoyed me so much
To think that they were once my bestfriends...
we WERE bestfriends!!!!

however, they chose to shut me out, left me out, exclude me in EVERYTHING...
After the confrontation they treated me better..of course they would...
Such hypocite people...

I wish i could talk and cry to somebody and let it all out...

...

Can't believe SPM is finally over...i've been waiting for the moment for a long long time
It will be weird not going to school next year.
After 5 years, high school is now over.
I'm gonna miss my friends for sure.
And the teachers.

I'm keeping my uniform as a remembrance that i was once in high school.
Life after SPM is boring.
Its empty.
I miss school a lot :(

Its TIME.

Can't believe I'm almost reaching the end.
I have never thought that it would be this fast
SPM is ending in a few more days and i'm not that happy.

SPM is the beginning of an END.
After 8 Dec i don't know if i ever see them again.

No more hanging out in class.[those were the days]
No more making fun of teachers.
No more sleeping in class.[nat and gerald]
No more morning assemblys.[love it.U got to see crazy and mental girls]
No more pinafore.[i love pinafore.]
No more longggg lectures.

As much as i hate those lectures sessions, i'm gonna miss complaining to my friends about it.

My life seems empty without convent.
I'm gonna miss this year.
It is a great year.
I love you all.

This post is specially dedicated to Nat, Gwen, Gerald, Sarah, Lee Wei, Afniza, Grazele, Twins and Chyna.
You guys made my life worth living and you guys are everything to me.
The time i spent with you all is so far the best times of my life.
I can't thank you enough for making 5 years of my life wonderful.

There are some things from our high school experiences that we will carry with us for the rest of our lives and some memories that we choose to forget. But when we look back at those experiences, we'll see our friends the ones who got us through everything and we'll realize how lucky we are to have them.

I'm lucky to have met and befriends all of you.

and may this prayer lives in you forevermore

May God give you... For every storm a rainbow, for every tear a smile, for every care a promise and a blessing in each trial. For every problem life sends, a faithful friend to share, for every sigh a sweet song and an answer for each prayer.

Yup.I can be emo.But i meant what i wrote.

LIES

No need to lie to me...i'm not a fool you know

She's BACKKKK :)

I miss her.
I miss her A LOT.
After feeling sadness yesterday, I can say that i am happy again.
I LOVE MY COUSIN SO MUCH :)

Too bad i still have 3 papers.I could spend more time with her if im free.
No matter, i can always go to her to be happy again.

Its OVER

I NEVER WANT TO SEE ANY ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS QUESTIONS EVER AGAIN.

Seriously,as if my life couldn't get worse.
My SPM is a mess.
I messed it up.

Waiting for a miracle

today is such a depressing day...

We got our forecast result and mine was not a good one.
It sucks.
But i don't know how to make it better.
I don't know where to go.
I don't know what to do.
Its like everybody knows their destiny and i have no idea what is mine.
I hate this feeling so much.
I feel useless and unimportant.

Right now i'm doing everything i can and revising as much as i can.
I need a miracle.
And i will get an excellent result for SPM.
i hope :)

I don't know

Frequently asked questions:-
Where are you going after SPM?
What are you doing after SPM?
What do you want to be?

Fionna's frequent answer:-
I DON'T KNOW
Even the title is 'i don't know'
I have no idea where i am going next year. I have no idea what am i doing next year.I'm not even sure what am i suppose to be.
All i know is i'm going to the f*****g PLKN camp next year.
You know what i want????
I want to travel.I want to travel the whole world.

Class of 2009

Today is Graduation Day!!
I know that i should be happy but i'm not...after this year i'm not going to see all my friends again...i am so gonna miss them
I've never thought that 5 years would pass by so damn fast...back then i was a 13 year old girl who can't wait to get out of SFC. I thought the school sucks and i'm gonna have a terrible time....

I WAS SO WRONG!!!
What i had for the past 5 years is irreplaceable
I love being in SFC
My friends are great and i LOVE them very very much....
How i wish i could rewind time and have all those fun again with them...
Everything would be different now

I spend 5 years with them...i went through a lot with them...i grew up with them...and now i have to let them go and live the life they've always wanted...

Once a franciscan always a franciscan.My memories with my dearest friends will forever stay with me.

Today, i'm just an almost-17-years-old girl who wish that she never have to leave St.Francis Convent. I'm proud to be a franciscan.Always had and always will be.

Church

Its official...THEY HATE ME
Never mind...
Everybody hate me will also be fine
My mum hate me too
I hate myself too
Pray that i'll not kill myself anytime soon
coz the desire to kill myself is damn strong

To whom it may concern

Seeing both of you hurts me A LOT...
I couldn't smile because of you two...you ignored me as if i am invisible and you shared nothing with me
Nothing!!!!!!!!! Seems like the guys are more important to you than me rite??? I'm sorry if i ever hurt you, i'm sorry if i ever make you cry and feel isolated...i'm sorry for everything, i'm sorry i didn't go to the fucking camp just so that i could join in in your conversations...My heart is breaking because our friendship is so fragile rite now...i don't know what to do

i hate it this feeling so much.

Sometimes i wish that suicide is not a sin.

Stress

I'm sick of studying

I love it but i need a break from it 

SPM is killing me

The expectations i'm getting is overwhelming.I did quite badly in Trial and it does not lift up to my standards...

sometimes i ask for too much and did so little. I'm such a useless moron... 

29 October 2009

My first post!!!
will update more later :)